What I Did Not Have.

What I did not have is a happy home

That’s why I run toward toxicity

What I did not have is the luxury of empathy

That’s why I am so closed off to the world

What I did not have is the ability to run free like the wind

That’s why when I pick up the pen I feel limitless

What I did not have is the memories that children should create with your father and grandfather

That’s why I look for role models in anyone else besides the males in my family

When I did not have is the ability to scrape by instill be OK

That’s why I am a workaholic

What I did not have is the ability to release my anger in a healthy way

That’s why I’ve gone through suicidal episodes multiple times in my life

The biggest thing I did not have

Is the confidence in honesty I needed to tell people in my life what was wrong instead of stabbing them in the back

Hopefully God grant me the serenity and peace I need to gain this before it is too late

I do not wanna hurt innocent people with my words and actions ever again.