Entitled "I'm Going To The Cemetery"

I’m going to the cemetery

To bury a friend

Someone I grew up with and shared clothes with

Someone that knows me better than I know myself

I feel my heart disappear within the memories

It never made sense why people always wore black to funerals

I guess it’s easier to wear black then it is to be black

The pallbearers shuffle through the crowd

As amazing Grace plays in the back of my mind

I am comforted by the whiskey that is contained

Inside the breast pocket of my suit

My organs swim in regret

Bitterness never tasted so good

Supporting your mother‘s aching frame

Ashy places her hands on the last physical memory of her baby

She moves with no emotion

A ghost in the shell she has become

Her small feet stumble

As she tries to regain her strength

Wishing that God would make her baby magically reappear

And that this gathering is nothing more than a mistake in nightmare

She thought going to church faithfully on Sunday mornings

Would prevent things like this from happening in her life

But I guess this is inevitable

it catches up with us at some point

Whether we like it or not

The fried chicken and soul food is a momentary Band-Aid for our pain

releasing the notches of my belt before I sit down

Is a reminder of how much I hate the cemetery

And how desperately I need to lose weigh

I thought black men were made to be strong

I guess we aren’t made of steel

Like the one born on the planet krypton

As “song cry“ by JAY-Z plays on the drive home

I fade away into the smoke from this Backwood

I’m high that means that I’m out of this world right now hopefully on my way to you

Getting ready to be a part of the next lifetime

Or whatever is to come after this

I hope I did not fail you my friend

You had such a bright future

Now you’re angelic light

Shines upon me

As I figure out what to do with the time I have left on this earth

I’m going to the cemetery today

Not sure if I’ll make it back

Just in case I die

I’ll make sure I have on the best suit possible.