Entitled "I Never Want"

I never wanna fall short in life

I never want to deal with the embarrassment that you get when you fall flat on your face

I never want my future children

Question whether daddy loves them or not

I never want them to hear the raging voices of their mother and father screaming in disagreement

I never want my insecurities to be passed down to them like my last name

I never want my wife to feel like I am not enough

I never want to be anything close to the person that my father is

I swear if that ever happens I’m just rather die

I never want my children to be plagued by the disease of giving love to people that do not deserve it

I never want my children to have anxiety when thinking about where their next meal is coming from

I never want to push my children away

I never want my wife to sacrifice her dreams for the sake of being a good wife

I never want my children to know the trauma of dealing with dark thoughts

I never want my children to be faced with the reality of growing up too fast too soon

I never want my children to see the trickle of blood that’s spews out of their nose after a violent hit

I never want my wife to look at me and disappointed and wish she married someone else

I want to make new mistakes with my family

Not make room at the table for the traveling skeletons in the closet of my memory