Entitled “Moment Of Weakness"

I should have been on a diet

One moment of weakness I came crawling back

Staring at the keypad feeling like a kid again

So many choices craving so many sweets

Oh but I don’t pay for it later on in life

One moment of weakness

Need I say more

Walking the machine released my piece of heaven

Canby is my comfort

My unconscious crack

Addicted to the sweet aromas

There are too good to truly give up

The roll of quarters vanishing into the abyss of the coin compartment

I feel like I can be myself

No one is watching as I aimlessly throw wrappers into the trash bin

I am not thinking about the numbers on the scale in the morning when I cry

I just want to escape

Food is a one-way ticket to Paradise

Not 1 ounce of guilt is in my heart

In the silence I gorge

I tried to savor every moment

Soon there is no money left

And I am forced to come to terms with this fat body

Soaking the reality called life in

I should’ve never stopped

this wretched thing

Maybe I’ll be better one day

Maybe tomorrow I’ll feel whole again

Right now I’m hasn’t broken as the cookies stuffed in my pocket